[Music] greetings friends welcome back to head above water this is season two this is your host jason charnick it's the middle of july thanks for joining us it's been a real long time since uh since i put a show out and i'm glad you guys have stuck around for season two it's not been easy the last four months the last five months now have been a tough time for a lot of people and it has been for me as well and i'm not used to that and i've been doing a show about mental health and filmmaking and because it's a very important topic to me obviously but never really thought i was gonna get hit as hard as i was as hard as i have been during this shutdown it's been tough to get work a lot of productions are shut down i work in post-production usually so some of the things that shot i was able to keep working on well once everything that was in the can was done then things just kind of stopped and you know one of the things that i've been i don't want to spend too much time on it during the opening of the show but one of the things that i did want to talk about a little bit is when all the shutdowns and stuff happened back in march there were a lot of memes and stuff going around about you know self-care and which is you know important obviously but like you know don't don't if you're not working if if you're struggling to be creative and struggling to write or shoot or edit or whatever you do don't worry about it don't be hard on yourself you don't have to be creative during this time and other people were saying wow look at all this extra time we have on our hands you know we can create and do all this fun stuff and some people have put out some amazing things over the last four months that wouldn't have been possible if not for this unfortunate circumstance that we all find ourselves in and i did a couple of short things i was messing around early on when you know it kind of felt like we would go back to normal eventually but now that we're in a different place in the world a few months later it's pretty obvious to me we're not going back to normal anytime soon so i really got hit by this internal confusion of you know not being hard on yourself for not doing anything but still wanting to create wanting to do things but not necessarily you know having avenues to do that this podcast is my avenue and i had kind of drifted away from it because like like i said i had said earlier in a post of mine online i i got depressed i don't know what's going on in the world you know i don't know who's listening to anything that i have to say anymore and it's not a comfortable feeling it's not you know and hopefully maybe it'll push me to make this show better and push me to do you know other things in the future but right now it just doesn't feel natural it doesn't feel organic also dealing with a lot of personal issues me and my wife have been trying to have a child over the past three years after we suffered a stillbirth and we lost our daughter shelby back in 2017 and we've been trying to have a child and we've been doing ivf and it hasn't worked and we're talking about some other options and adoption and things like that and all of this kind of is happening right in the middle of this huge health crisis so having to go to the doctor wearing masks and and take care and the distancing and all of that while trying to deal with fertility issues is also extremely difficult but i don't want to really bog you guys down with any of the personal stuff um although if you want to hear it i'm more than happy to go on and on about it but the show is really focused on filmmaking and creativity and trying to find our voice in this new day and age so with that being said i want to present you guys with an interview that i did before all the shutdowns and stuff happened with a dear friend of mine peter sullivan peter is a writer director producer he his most recent film is fatal affair it is out on netflix today july 16th so please check it out i don't know if my openings for our upcoming shows are going to be like this i usually try to keep them brief try to keep them a little bit more uplifted but um sometimes i just don't feel the days of feeling uplifted have been far you know few and far between over the past couple of months but i do want to bring you guys some interviews i do want to keep doing these shows talk to people about how they're you know dealing with uh the pandemic dealing with their current situations and how they're keeping creative how they're keeping upbeat and how they're dealing with um this new world that we live in for right now so anyway thank you guys for joining us thank you for sticking with me on head above water we're calling it season two welcome back to season two of head above water here's our first episode here's my interview with writer director producer a fatal affair and many other films the great peter sullivan welcome to this episode of head above water we have a very very special guest for you guys today i'm very excited to talk to him we have director filmmaker extraordinaire peter sullivan from uh secret obsession is one of his latest the uh the secret lives of the secret lives of cheerleaders and the upcoming are we allowed to even say that fatal affair so peter and i have been friends for 25 years i'd like to do a little at the beginning like to talk a little bit about your origin story so your origin story is a little bit of my origin story we met at nyu yes we did back in 1997 um after i had graduated from college in boston and took a film program at nyu and you were in the actual tisch film school so tell me a little bit about like your your origin story why why you wanted to make movies and what brought you to nyu and what are you at now when i was starting out you know obviously the days before youtube and everything and like you know the making of movies was kind of a mystery it was it was it was something magical and it was made on film i know and and i you know you you go back and i remember you know the day my my parents told me that star wars wasn't real that there really weren't spaceships and jedi knights and robots and you know the stormtroopers and you know were just guys in suits and and things like that and and i was like okay what can't be i've seen them they're they're flying through space well that's not real i was like well i've seen it how can that not be real and then so you know i got a book in the library it's like you know the making of the star wars uh movies or whatever and and i was like oh my gosh look at that and how old are you back then when when then you know six or seven okay like that and then i just kind of became fascinated by it and then you know i tried to you know pride my hand in in writing and then of course my parents had told me well you have to write movies that haven't been made all day uh writing the script for the empire mom i wrote star wars i was watching star wars and i just wrote star wars star wars that's already been done you need to come up with something else uh and so that was sort of the beginning of it and and and kind of being fascinated with the idea of telling stories i remember writing i remember writing scripts in in like middle school and and in high school i think i wrote my first feature length uh a script with an adaptation of the most dangerous game which we read in english class and i thought well this obviously needs to be in space with an alien uh so i wrote i wrote an outer space version of that and then i continued and and i made a short film in in high school which then got me into nyu um at that time i wasn't quite ready to make the leap across the country uh so that was like that was about as far as i i was gonna go at that point and you grew up in massachusetts yeah uh uh uh shrewsbury outside of worcester which is about 40 minutes from boston so you know i i had i would not go to la for another couple years uh after that point but yeah that was um ended up a tish which was i mean it's a great education um they seem to be they they tend to be a little a little more indie you know my you know they'd be talking about these customers and i was going to the independent day you know so that that we had slight differences in in our in our filmic styles but um uh you know it was great i i you know met a lot of people yourself included that uh you know have gone on to you know wonderful things great illustrious careers yeah so let me ask you a little bit about your time at nyu then when you go to nyu you know scorsese went there yeah you know oliver stone went there and you know just all everyone who went there yeah at the time if you even if you remember because this was not yesterday what is is there like an immediate pressure on you to have to live up to you know how did they frame your education do you have to live up to scorsese stone levels i i think or do you put that on yourself how does that affect how do you deal with with the history of that like i said there's very much in in in the minds i mean the films the filmmakers you talked about uh the oliver stone uh spike lee is another one right uh who's kind of a constant presence uh there on campus you know it is very much an indie mindset and and you know like i said i i was more commerce i was interested in commercial films you know you know star wars raiders lost ark i i grew up going to the church of spielberg you know i love you know of course they they love i love good fellows but but i was really you know spielberg had you applied to ucla or usc i never applied to any of these so you just wanted to stay back east well i did early acceptance okay and so part of the deal with all the acceptance if you get in you you've got to go you're committing so uh i never got to the actual like more traditional submission process where you send you know applications to many schools i had catalogs but i never got that far i looked at syracuse ithaca emerson um and nyu i think was the only one that i actually toured but to answer your question you know because it's kind of in the you know it's very much like well you you go here and you raise money and you make a film so you know while i was in the the easy steps the easiest everyone should do that right you know i would say the big influence on on what your career is supposed to look like is you know i happen to be going to school right when the indie world was just absolutely exploding right and you had people like kevin smith yep you know hartley jim jarmish you know these were guys that were anything from alex getting you know maxing out 30 credit cards to make their film and you know here comes clerks the el mariachi and and you know that was what you were supposed to do and i remember thinking that i'm not sure about that and i'm under you know for every clerk how many people maxed out those credit cards and and you know just just did nothing but spend the next 30 years paying them off right um and i remember a couple people oh yeah we're going to raise money and we're going to make this movie i remember this one guy that i i i remember talking to and he yeah he had you know hundred thousand dollars he was gonna make the next clerk then you know we never did now the original clerks was made for a fraction but i remember but i remember you know that element and there's also you know there was that kind with that expectation oh like um i'm gonna win the nyu first run film festival right and then a studio will see my work and pick it up and that happened uh to one one uh director from my class right by and lawrence that's not what i would call a real stable career plan right um but that really was i mean these were the kind of things that were talked about because they never really they never talked about well what do you do like what how what do you do when you get out of school what do you do for a living how do you how do you you know make a career out of any of this right sustainability is the hot world but i mean but you always but when you so when you were at nyu even though you were making you know your projects and stuff there and and doing the in the indie way you always had an eye on big budget studio pictures like you knew what you wanted to do so you never really felt any compunction to like have to have i need to be better than this guy i mining needs to be better i i need i wanted to make it i mean obviously there's going to be a you know a little bit of competition anyway yeah but you you you always had an eye on what you were doing and you didn't kind of let any of that mess with your head i i think i i didn't really know what i was supposed to be doing and and again i think i think that was the one thing that was missing was just okay we're going to teach you how to use the camera we're going to teach you how to make a little short film and tell a story but that's not the same as teaching you how to how to like you said the sustainability of all of this and so that was kind of the missing component but i remember very clearly there was one day and and we were doing our senior thesis project and uh the way it worked is is you would have to go in and you would write a short script and give it to the professor and then he would decide who in the class would get to make their senior you know the senior films and who who would get to make a film that's a little bit of pressure yeah no pressure at all and um so i wrote a script that was a monster movie uh like it was kind of like a i was just actually thinking about it this morning kind of like you know nowadays it would be a natural episode of black mirror or twilight zone or tail from the crypt or something like that you know but that was that was what i wanted to do and when he first read the script he said this is great and so well written and so you know inventive or whatever and then you know a couple weeks later it's like you're not going to make the phone i know i'm not going to i'm not going to approve the script and i was like why it's like well you have to you you know i want you to make something from your heart and i want you to you know to tell a story that's meaningful to you and i'm like yeah that's what it is um you know so what i ended up making for my student film was this sort of scorsese crime drama thing but let's be perfectly honest this monster movie was way closer to anything that that i was in that you really that wanted then than that other film so you're already i mean i guess that's part of the education you're already learning to deal with people who are trying to change your work but that's like how you know it's like how dare you try to tell somebody what their you know what they're interested in what's near and where they're personal to them and i'll give you a very so very funny how that story ended so i remember when i was still developing this and i and i got as far as designing the creature and i was talking to a couple of talented effects artists from class about it and i remember i met this one guy who uh worked with me at the media program and he and he and his buddy were doing like wanted to do monster effects or whatever and they were into horror movies and stuff so they were going to work on this creature for me and and i remember the guy's name and you know apparently nobody told him that he couldn't make horror movies uh and his name was jeremy sonjay oh that's a guy yeah and and he was gonna work on the monster i mean it's like come on guys right going to nyu tell people what personal to them let them decide what's personal for them maybe what's personal to me is you know a little tale from the crypt kind of you know horror story and that i obviously that that interaction with your teacher left an impression enough on you to remember it well i thought i mean literally thinking about it this morning because i was coming over or just just because i was like hey maybe i should you know try to make that movie someday hey like could this movie be expanded uh and i think the answer is no i think it would kind of you know it's perfect for what it was which was like a 20-minute short film i don't think i have any use for it today but i still like the concept and you know oh well but again yeah interesting that you know those are the those are the formative moments that stay with you when you get started right so we ended up shooting your thesis film and we made it and we got it out there and then you moved out to los angeles right and this was in about i think 1999. so you moved out to los angeles and got started working in development you always had an eye this is you know another one of the things that's been a common theme you know just watching your career as it develops is you know and it hand in hand with what your professor said you always wanted you had a very specific vision of what you wanted your career to be yes you wanted to direct feat studio feature i i wanted to direct i i like i said so i went to the school of of spielberg you know that was sort of my you know i loved the film you know i i loved michael bay films and bobby rodriguez films and so i just i'd love to me movies were away tell a story and entertain people and they're people that make movie because they want to you know explore the meaning of life or you know get into you know the the you know personal relationship and that's all that's all yeah as well but but i really i mean just personally wanted to entertain people i bet those are the movies that that i gravitated towards and that's what was interesting to me but one of the things that i got out of film school really was a real education on a whole language of film like i thought i grew up watching star wars and indiana jones and that kind of stuff but then going to nyu exposed me to the filmmakers and films that i hadn't really been exposed to before you know they might have run on late night television but i had never seen citizen kane i'd never you know i've never seen you know some of these the you know one you know born films or or western you know yeah i mean you know john ford and and and frank capra and i mean movies like it's a wonderful uh uh wonderful life it happened one night i mean these are movies that you know i i saw for the first time in film school and they really meant something to me and kind of expanded my my vision on what a movie could could be and could accomplish and and so i tried to take that expanded you know vocabulary and and and i thought okay now i you know i'm i'm gonna go and i'm going to make uh theatrical films and you know be the next spielberg or you know right tarantino or yeah but you decided to do that in los angeles i i like going to school in new york but i knew that that the nexus of the industry really was la and even like for example when i was in film school i i had an internship with dreamworks in new york but it was the publicity department right you know it you know the productions and everything we're being done they're not making movies yeah they're not making it after they're done there i think spielberg came in and used the bathroom but that was like you know that was not yeah that was not where you know the the magic was was happening so when i was in school i had gotten a book how to get a job in the film and television industry and in the back with the list with the days before the internet uh in the back where the list of companies that you know allegedly were looking for interns and i wrote to them and one called me back and offered basically to hire me sight unseen because i wasn't going to fly across the country just for a job interview to spend the summer there working on what would turn out to be tv movies how many places would you say you got in touch with before you moved out to la i mean i don't remember how many i emailed in the book um you know i i maybe sent out ten or four right so just a handful letter because you you have you have nyu tisch school for the arts on your resume and yet still and yes you're getting started but do you have nyu on your resume we don't even want you as an intern well i didn't i didn't know anybody what i did the following years i actually did come out and interviewed with a bunch of companies and i got in the door with quite a few you know quite a few of them uh the following year but they put my first kind of foray into it and so i figured well i'll just send a bunch of letters and send my resumes out and this company that that i knew very little about and again the internet was such in its infancy you couldn't exactly just go on with pdf these places did not have web pages i i didn't know anything about them i mean nothing um really uh other than what it would have said in this book uh and yet i i uprooted myself and flew to la uh and got a tiny uh bachelor apartment in in west la and slept on an air mattress for summer and see and this is one of the things you know and i it's been i've spoken to a a bunch of different people about it because you know a lot of people feel the same way as you like los angeles is the center it's the heart i need to be where the action is and i've met a lot of people especially having been south by southwest i've met a lot of texas filmmakers and and just filmmakers from around the world that don't want to canadian filmmakers that don't want to move to la they don't want to be in this situation they still want to kind of make it on their own outside of here but you always felt that los angeles was going to be your final destination if you will yeah it has changed a little bit since then i mean for example you know i like i said i grew up in massachusetts and and back then there was no film industry enough i i remember you know i would call the massachusetts the massachusetts film office had a hotline and every week they would have a recording of films that were casting films that were cooling up whatever and i mean we're talking about industrials at this point there's nothing meaningful going on and now of course we've gotten into tax credits and everything in massachusetts become a production hub and they're shooting all kinds of movies there little peter stone like a nice day and age uh uh things might have turned out different i i don't know i mean i had never been on a film set until i got to to nyu and i still remember uh the first the first time i i went on a student film uh that i was hired to be a pa i mean this is this little tiny phone you know student film set but to me that was like you know i just wandered into hollywood all right so you're out here in l.a and you're getting started and you're working for now wilshere court productions which is where we had worked for a little bit of time obviously we knew each other from earlier but that's you know where we had kind of where things kind of sprung out from there right so you're sleeping on an air mattress you're living or you're living a very low pro lifestyle in l.a just kind of making do you know going to work every day as a development assistant just kind of getting things going at any point when you were getting going did you feel like it wasn't gonna happen um did that drag on you well i remember when i was working on a student film uh uh and i i remember the night very clearly it was it was the middle of the night we were doing an all-nighter in pennsylvania at a at a defunct airport i think it was and and i think we were like using it for like area 51 or something and and there was a member on the crew that was kind of a dickhead and and he said to me he's like you know how many films are written a year and what makes you think you can you can do this i forget this guy's name jason something but anyway um that's so funny because not that i've not the second part of it that i i i have mentioned to be like just so many movies do get made in the evening but but no but but it was but that that that kind of resonated with me and i remember being at walter coy and and you know being in the development department just seeing all the script for for consideration and and behind every script is a person trying to make it behind every script of the person trying to make it and and back then i mean again before the internet these scripts were all you know they were printed they were mailed in messengered what have you some of them came from agents some of them came from lawyers and whatever and i mean we're talking hundreds of them and a lot of them would end up in file cabinets and i remember they had shelves and shelves and shelves and things and just i remember looking at things how how can i get noticed how can i ever expect to stand out when there's so many and again that's something they don't really you know other than the wisdom of mr sharnek you know they don't teach you in film film school it's like by the way you're gonna be in a pool with with you know half a million other people trying to do exactly what you're doing and i remember kind of being a little depressed about the whole thing and and i remember the head of development the vice president of development at that time who had hired me died unseen uh her name was sharon moore and she you know i talked to her in the office and she said you know what don't think that way and i have a feeling you're gonna do it and that's all it took and i was like positive voice one positive voice one pause and and so i went back that was the summer between my sophomore and junior year and i went went you know with that attitude it's like well fine i'm just gonna keep trying until i do and it was because of worcester court and because of that book that i bought that one day uh that i did make it i just didn't know how all the pieces were gonna fit yet so how do you and i think this is this can be very useful to a lot of people just getting started out how do you was it as simple as just hearing an encouraging word from one person how do you fight through that depression of of just knowing your you know now you're the small fish in this big pond and and you have to people need you need to be able to somehow fight through that you know like i said was it just hearing one positive voice or you know what what kind of work did you do internally to just to force you to to just keep pushing forward one you have to ign almost ignore the object and it's very hard to do that it's very hard but you just kind of have to not think about it and just kind of stay positive you also can't give up i can't tell you how many people over the years that i've worked with worked for whatever who have gone on to wonderful careers in other industries but you know it i i know there were plenty of people that came out they were assistants you know and i'm not sure what they expected but you know uh they gave up they left and and it really you know you have to be willing to endure and you have to be you know you have to be willing to kind of you know look being an assistant it pays terribly i i did run up credit card debt you you know you're sleeping on an air mattress uh you know you're willing to do whatever it takes to to make it happen and it's just perseverance you know that that you have to kind of just keep going keep going at it and and yeah it was it helped to have an encouraging word it also helped look you know maybe all these other people didn't make it but but these people over here did and and if they did you know it was great but i but it is good and i remember clearly you know without mentioning names or whatever you know you you know after graduating and and coming out you know coming back out to la so now i have not only do i have you know nyu on my resume i have the diploma right i'm a graduate now and i'm still working for seven dollars an hour as as an intern uh at the same company that i worked at you know when i was when i was a junior and and still making the same amount of money but now i'm trying to actually start a life it's not summer anymore right this is my life now and and just like okay i'm i'm gonna try to i'm gonna try to do it and i'm gonna try to work my way up and you know i didn't know anybody and i didn't have any contacts in the business and my my advice for people another piece of advice is you know uh intern if you're a film student intern because if you don't know anyone going in you got to fix that and they won't bat the fastest way to fix it right is to be there and meet people and you're probably not going to get hired if you don't know anybody at first so being an intern is great because everybody loves free labor it's true uh but i remember i mean i interned it was recording intended dream work i interned at copelson entertainment uh uh for the late uh owner copeland i i recommend to people since i've been on the festival circuit go to film festivals meet people at film festivals i mean first of all everybody's got a camera in their pocket now so anybody can just go you know when we when we were getting started to make a short film was still a production it was i used to tell people you know that that film is a hard art to pursue because unlike you know painting or writing or music or whatever it it takes a small army to execute it but but little by little that's being taken away and and what used to take thousands of dollars now you can do with desktop software that's practically freeware if you if you know if you're just getting started you can download an app to do vfx and and use your cell phone you know i mean cell phones with video cameras that's that's that's still you know that that just didn't exist back then that's right tell phone family yeah back then little ones with cameras in them that's right um you know so so it really it all changed it's easier than ever to create stuff and but it's still as hard as ever to break through and to keep a positive attitude to keep a positive attitude and also i mean think about it now that it's so easy everyone else is doing it right so the competition's fiercer than ever so it really yeah it's just you have to just work harder but um you know i've made many short films but again it's it was the contact that i made as a result of the internship as a result of the job i got because of the internship as a result of the people i met at the job that i got because of the internship that led to where i am now not my short film the idea that i'm gonna make a short film and somebody over at paramount is going to see it and hire me to direct the next whatever that might happen for some people but it it didn't happen uh for for me for sure and it really happened for most of the people that i know so all right so let's let's let's jump forward then so after your time at wilshire court and that company you know went under shortly after i left and and maybe around the time that you had left as well when was your first professional someone said i'm gonna pay you money to direct something uh well let's start with the writing because that came first right um the uh so at wilshire court uh i had worked my way up from an intern making seven dollars an hour uh to an assistant probably making eight dollars an hour and um the assistant who i replaced his name with clinton uh he had left worcester court he went to an animation company called nirvana and then from there ended up at an indie company called regent which had just done like gods and monsters and and and they they happened to have uh this is this how i mean this is just like kind of how all of the pieces just happen to fit together neatly there was a newfangled uh uh genre just coming in to uh uh noticed back then called the reality show and and there was this new brand new tv show called survivor yes and i had this idea that i thought well what if what if somebody was on the survivor island killing the contestants i mean literally survivor was in season one yeah one of the editors of survivor season one did a picture at wilshere court so i i thought to myself hey well let me write a let me write a horror movie about about a serial killer on the island of survivor and so like this guy clinton that was with my predecessor had gone on ended up at a company region and as luck would have it the head of regent just happened to own property on an island he would shoot and just happen to be looking for scripts that was set on island and i just happened to have one and that got me in the door and it never got made it went through a lot of rewrite then a lot of strange ideas he sold the island the the the they ended up they they ended up taking the reality show component out of it and it just became it it became you know something else entirely i think there was a mummy involved at one point which was far from my slasher on the island idea but they had bought that original script they didn't actually ever pay me for it but they developed it okay and then one day i got a call from regent saying hey uh can you come by this afternoon and i was like i really don't want to talk about this island thing anymore i mean gosh just give it up already fine oh i'll come but i'll calm down and this is after you had written a whole script that they did not pay you for well i had written the script on spec and then they had me do copious ends of rewrite about it so uh uh okay here we go here's another here's another set of notes just another rewrite or whatever so wait so let me ask you this question then so this and since this is the very first experience when so there must be an initial elation holy shit somebody wants to buy my script yeah i get the word the contract i don't i don't remember ever getting paid i think the contract said i would get paid when the movie got made which of course it never did so but what i'm curious i'm curious about is your mindset as a young professional trying to get your career going going from i'm excited that someone wants to make a movie out of a script that i wrote to oh no these fuck people again like what's that well okay so i go in there and i can take the script and it's like great i i've just created the next fight of the 13th and in my head i'm i'm planning uh you know uh uh sequels uh you know nine this is it this is gonna be my freddy krueger this is going to be my jason voorhees and then it's like okay great well okay we don't really like this reality show thing so let's make the market archaeological students okay well we don't really like the serial killer things how can it be a mummy okay and well you know um can we have them not all really die but maybe they we thought they were dead and they come back at the end i mean it was really the kind of note that i was getting and and so you see quickly how creatively you you learn how the development process can go can go wrong i mean i'm excited to be working with these guys i was excited to do whatever they asked me for right but i was kind of getting a little tired of you know of the you know going off on you know the tangents when you know for this thing i mean look but i think okay we're going to talk about this this island thing again so at some point you go from the elation and happiness of of all you know everything i imagine not only for the script but they're gonna just like at some point the self-preservation kicks in and you're not gonna let yourself get stepped on so much i was incredibly excited uh to be working on that and uh it was my introduction to the rewrite process and it was interesting because well i shouldn't say within my introduction to the rewrite process as a writer i was working for in development so i was familiar sort of with this process i kind of knew what to expect because i had been transcribing notes for my bosses for other writers you know never me but i was familiar with the idea of network notes and studio notes and whatever and this was now my opportunity to see it but it was kind of exciting to to be you know to be going through this on the other side of the table sure uh uh and i was very grateful and so when i got the call to go in that day i assumed okay here's going to be another note meeting you know so i went in there and um i did not i would not greeted with the normal executive that i had been meeting with they i met with a junior executive that um that i'd never met before who worked at regent and his name was jeff shank and he he said uh you know um i said okay we're gonna talk about the island thing and he said no no i have something else i want to talk to you about i'm like okay did i have are you familiar with the i don't remember 100 i think it was in pennsylvania at that time there was a pennsylvania coal mining disaster that had just taken place and uh truth be told not only was i familiar with it i had been pursuing the rights for my boss at hearst entertainment where i was then now working so i was very familiar with the story that absolutely he's like he's like well you know we can't afford the right to this but we kind of want to do you know something similar can you write a script in two weeks and i was i absolutely i i i didn't i just never written a script in two weeks in my life and by the way that's the lesson somebody asks you you say yes yes and you'll figure it out later right and i did i wrote i wrote the script in two weeks i'm not going to say it was amazing uh but i wrote it in two weeks then i got some notes and and and did another pass and that became my first produced screenplay look at that good look at that so i mean like sometimes it's just a combination of luck in combination of perseverance i think they you know co-op being cooperative isn't very important in this business and i say this as someone who has been on both sides of the table collaboration collaboration listening taking the notes i remember very clearly there's one guy uh when i when i was at nyu i think he worked in that media department with me and he was working on something and you know we started talking about oh what you want to do one day whatever anything you know i want to you know i want to i want to make movies i thought would you go to l.a and and he said no man i'm going to stay indy i'm not going to let anyone tell me what to do i'm going to make it on my own term then i'm going to make movies my way and look i don't remember this guy's name right but i'm gonna guess he never made a movie right you know because it you you you everyone at some point is gonna have to work with someone else and what i proved by doing you know these rewrites on the horror movie is i i can collaborate i can you know i'll take ideas i'll give ideas i can work with you i'm fast i'm reliable and so hey we need a writer for this coal mining thing let's call peter you know i think you know that's probably a conversation that took place making yourself available and and i uh and there we go i mean that was now i was like on cloud nine absolutely i mean it's like oh my god i'm gonna make a movie uh i remember i remember going to meet the the line producers from australia came out oh my god this is it this is the moment i've been waiting for for you know at that point probably five or six years so your career continues to move forward and and this is like i said we're pretty much mid-career at this point all right so this is still very very very early still had a day job uh and i would have a day job for a while and that's another thing don't expect just because you have this one film things are going to change but i remember i quit when this movie went into production because that meant i was going to get paid well you know there's no guarantees that that money is going to continue i ran out of money i needed a job and so i thus began you know then i got another little another another part-time job and another part-time job uh trying to support myself while i was writing you know fighting two movies a year but it wasn't enough to really live on so after that first one and you think this is going to be it and it's not quite it just yet so how do how do you deal with the expectations versus reality is is one of the things i'm on um yeah i remember i was drafting letters like you know i really i really need another job i can't do this anymore kind of a thing and it was just a kind of like sense of entitlement that started to show up and and and that was a mistake and your own sense of intelligence my own sense of you know like well i i deserve another film and and and i was working on stuff but nothing was going and again so you don't get paid until the movies go so um you know there was one film that was produced a little bit after that was that was never it was never really officially released in the united states i have a dvd from lithuania there was another disaster movie but i worked at a bank for a while and you're still writing this it became a pattern it really was two movies a year um after that point um never had any thought i mean we might have talked about this years ago and still like but never any thought to like take one of those and get it made yourself i would try i would try there was a robin hood project i was working on for a long time the respect that i was doing but i i truth be told i was being kept busy i mean it wasn't like i wasn't doing anything i would be writing constantly but it seemed like i was my pattern with two would get produced a year and it's hard to turn down a gig from somebody like jeff who was hiring me reliably so i could focus on my own thing i mean it's like i and and that pattern continues to this day it's like i'm very busy i'm very lucky to be tired to do what i do i'm not gonna look at gift horse in the mouth uh i just need to find a way to make ends meet right uh so uh you know so again and i worked at the bank for quite a while and they were very kind of cooperative and that was sort of where i started to get comfortable because they they were very um they knew they knew what i was doing they knew about the you know they knew about the writing i knew you know they knew i needed time uh they were very flexible for me you know i needed to take time off to go visit that or whatever they were they were very cool with that no hesitation whatsoever no like well you have to decide you know they were no ultimatum you know and i think they kind of got a kick out a little bit too you got lucky enough to find a job not in the industry right that gave you the flexibility to work within that and i was in administration so i was doing reports on excel and stuff i wasn't like you know i wasn't a teller or something i mean it was it was office work you know and and um you know to be honest i think they kind of thought it was cool i think they kind of dug the novelty of it right you know and and so i mean that continued for a while um through the writing and also if the producing got started but they had health benefits and stuff like that so that was good what ended up happening was and this is why loyalty is so important in about 2007 2008 jeff left regent and started his own company and because i had experience working in development as an assistant and working my way up to story editor and then working at the development person for my but the producer that jody who had that deal at her he asked me to come on board with him and basically just the two of us started doing uh television movies for uh that were kind of international co-production and that was the beginning so that's how he was getting the financing for those those films yeah so the first ones that we did there was like there was a slate of i think three film that we did with canada uh and they they all got la they all got uh premieres on unlike lifetime but they were they were independents that were canadian co-production but then um we were doing a christmas christmas movie called christmas proposal which we teamed up with a producer named barry barnholtz and that you know from there then we did dog dave christmas and we did a filler called the perfect student and you're directing some of these at this point i'm not directing you you're still not having to not direct any of these yet so when we teamed up with barry barnholt to do christmas proposal that was kind of the beginning of what became hybrid which is the company today uh it's called hybrid because it was it was van holtz entertainment and then aero entertainment jeff company uh mind you two very small operations um coming together to be a slightly less small operation um that literally would bury uh jeff myself uh and and we didn't even have offices together i mean barry had his office and jeff had jeff and i had our offices but we were at the for the first time making movies under one banner which was which was hybrid but talk about directing so i you know i i always wanted to direct i'd you know do the student film whatever but going even back to the uh island movie um you know the you know there was no director ever attached to that project it was never made but you know i never was shy about asking i was like hey i i i write this like i could direct her and and so i even even when you know i i went to that island uh i ended up not that movie but ended up shooting a couple movies there you know writing a couple movies that were shot there i got to go to set and visit and kind of you know shadow the director and learn i was kind of soaking up this knowledge and jeff just never understood why i wanted to direct and um you know it's kind of hard to articulate but just like i just you know i just i would never interested i'd never really been interested in assembling and getting financing and all that kind of stuff i wanted to make movies i wanted to write in direct movies and i kept asking and asking and asking and then in 2011 we were getting ready to do the third installment of the dog's save series and uh the director had done the first two mike pfeiffer wasn't available to do the third and just like well okay okay when we did the second dog movie i had to direct some of the voice over work mike was doing another film and so they said you know do you mind going into the audio booth and directing some of the dark voice overs that we were recording and uh they had brought in paris hilton to do the dog that our hero falls in love with and again mike was not available and i had to go in and do it and i directed paris hilton and the time that i got paris hilton to bark like a dog apparently apparently got me some some brownie points and so uh when the third movie came up they're like hey do you wanna you know you did so well with the voiceover do you wanna try doing the film and and so that that was the dogs taped halloween and always say yes you say yes i said no you said no i said no i thought i don't want to do that fucking dog movie whatever and i remember it was it was shawn olson uh another editor that i that i'd worked with it was like are you crazy you have to do this okay fine i'll do it i'll do it i'll direct the dog movie i'll do i'll do the doggy thing i'm gonna pull my leg and uh what made you say like because we had just said that like you know always say yes and now here you are saying no what what where did you get the balls to do that well you know i i i i mean the dog movies are a very specific thing i mean they they tell you you know for your first especially for your first film don't work with children and animals and this was both and i think i was just kind of i was you know it was somebody else's series and i was kind of intimidated and i was very uncertain about it but you know look you're right i had to remember my own thing never say no uh uh when you're when you know when that break is there you got to grab it and i said you know let me find i will do this movie and and uh you know i remember halfway through the first day of shooting we were at a dog park in and off of um like balboa or something uh over here in in van nuys and uh you know i was working with dean kane and and and i knew these guys because i had been on set for the other two dog movies though so you'd already been shadowing at least i knew these actors they knew me you know i was working with a dp that i you know has done some short films with and stuff and i remember you know and so this is my very first movie my very first day of shooting and i'm halfway through the first day and i'm like oh my god i don't want to do this anymore i hate that this is awful this is this is not what i thought it was going to be like this is what 2011 so this is 11 years in la 12 13 years in l.a toiling finally got an opportunity finally got the chance and i'd like what if you hate it like you get you finally get your chance and what if you hate it and i wouldn't i was just like i really don't like this when you say this do you mean direct direction i didn't you know i was not comfortable you know i i i i was very nervous because here i am at the beginning saying part of what got you to where you are today is the confidence of knowing what you wanted to do and it's like what if you don't you know like what if you get into a situation where you don't have the confidence you know what if what if you know and people will smell that and people smell that and oh my god i smell it if i can smell it they must smell it it's what's actually kept me from pursuing a directorial career really yeah absolutely like i never i mean we thought that's why i was an editor when i got started and i never really wanted to direct but then after a while and now i'm kind of getting back into it you know 20 years later but at some point i was just i had you know when we had done our shorts over the years and i've done my shorts but i was like if i get on set and i don't know what i'm doing and i've never worked with you know a name actor a dean kane like even though i mean you know but if i'm and i don't know what i'm doing they're gonna eat me alive and i just said i'm just going to go into post and be in a quiet dark room for the rest of the movie and it's kind of one of the reasons why i never really even now after my film's gotten some you know buzz to not doc people were like you should get an agent you should do that i'm just like i don't know if i wanna be you know i didn't go to school for that you know so it's one of the things that kind of kept me away from it you know um i i know i was i wasn't happy and and i but i i stuck with it i said you know i committed to do this i'm gonna do it what am i gonna do quit and no i'm gonna i'm gonna do this and i did and i got through the film and i put it together and i said oh this is actually you know not so bad and then i screened it for jeff and barry and then i realized i'd made a completely steaming piece of document and i was like oh well that that didn't go so well um uh and and it was really like it was an experience because i didn't expect the film to be torn apart the way that it was in that first screening by by the producers okay um and i kind of you know i thought i was gonna get kind of like a pat on the back and here you go and it was like no you know it was again it was a whole new thing something i knew i had never been exposed to before which was the film notes but you know but you must be thinking well no one's going to give me another chance at this uh i thought that i thought that i was like oh my god i've screwed up and and and you know and and i really didn't get another chance until again there was another film that mike pfeiffer was too busy to do and so that was uh 12 wishes of christmas which you know i i thought came out a little bit better and then there was another film that that mike pfeiffer was too busy to do that it was christmas twister and and they're not complaining at this point no no i was like hey i want him to be busy like you can go send him on vacation yeah i mean no i mean i i i never had another day like that first one i mean i think it's just you just you just kind of like start to panic you know and i went on and you know i met so many wonderful people making that movie and i got to work with lance hendrickson and everything and you know it just it just you know the the you know you just kind of okay this is what it's going to be like and and you kind of you kind of like it and it's like i can i am now in control of of this and it it becomes more about okay what were the mistakes that i made and and how can i do better and how how do i make sure that these ideas shots that i have actually make it and and it's hard because especially movies at this level there's incredible time pressure these movies are made very quickly you don't have room for mistakes and it's ironic because oftentimes you know well you know you're starting out so you get you know you don't have a lot of time but it's almost the opposite you almost need someone with the experience to make movies at this level because you do have to move so fast if you don't have the confidence don't have the experience you're not going to be able to cope with such a fast-paced environment it's just you're going to lock up and that's funny that you mentioned that too because i was actually thinking about this this morning the independent filmmakers that i've been meeting in the community that i've been hanging out in when you're making your own i was literally just thinking about this this morning when you're making your own movies however if someone's painful or not but when you're making your own stuff there's very rarely deadlines you know maybe you want to hit a deadline for a festival or something like that but a lot of people especially in documentaries where they take six seven years anyway but like even in the narrative world in in the you know low budget micro budget space there's no deadlines so people just take their time they think it's going to be their calling card and that's absolutely we want that's what we want we want everyone's success but there's you can take your time with it enough that you know at this other level you have to and not just answer to other people and there's other people you know other considerations you gotta pick up the pace and that's a whole different you don't even have time to let it depress you or worry you you just have to kind of go and do the work like like a craftsman at that point like i have to build this house so i'm gonna put it together right i think it's learning how to balance and make the most of that time it is the most important thing and and learning not only to to make your day but but to make a good day you know and that was something that took i mean it still took a while there was a lot of compromises i mean there's still compromises every day but you know i feel like i've gotten to a point where you know i know how to set a proper expectation level and and you know there's times where you really need to cover a lot out of a scene and other times you really don't and and there's times that you know you you have time to spend with the actors sometimes you don't and you know i i think you know the best experience is that when you have people that are used to that pace used to that schedule and they come in and they can do it and and it's not like oh i'm i'm used to doing you know three pages of dialogue a day and you're giving me 10. um it still happens but you know you you you kind of work through it and and you just make sure that everybody's on the same page you can end up in a situation where you have like let's say a cinematographer who's an absolute perfectionist and needs to take you know 30 minutes to light a shot it's like i've got an hour to shoot this scene right and now you've just took you just took a half an hour to light the first shot of many you know it's like i i that that's the type of person that's not gonna work when you're on a set like that how do you find your voice to because listen you're a nice guy and you i've never really seen you yell at anyone i've never seen you really argue with anyone how do you find your voice you know when it's this high pressure high fast-paced environment to tell people you got 15 minutes to set up the show um i do pretty bad pressure i'll admit i'm not the best under pressure and i do i do let it get to me more than it should and i've gotten better at it losing your cool or or whatever is not going to help doesn't bring it back you can get frustrated and and you know but but ultimately what what you have to learn is your demeanor affects the demeanor of everybody else if you've got an actress that's in a bad mood or a director is in a bad mood or a cinematographer just in a bad mood uh it will impact the environment on the set and can make it an unpleasant place and that's important and it's important to keep that set as happy as possible and and sometimes i'm successful at it and sometimes i'm not you know and it all depends on all the variables and you know that kind of thing sure but i've had people visit that a wonderful status so happy everyone's happy to be here and i've been on set so people have visited that i had to get out of there no i could feel it i i could i could i could feel the tension i could feel you know that the morale was low and and and you know um you know maybe it's me maybe it's not you know maybe someone else but it's like yelling is is never really uh gonna help it's not and it's human to lose your time sure but uh i try really hard not to so now that you're you have a few movies under your belt and and as a director and even more as a writer and a producer put yourself back in your nyu shoes yeah now granted there was a long journey to get you to this place yeah the career that you envisioned for yourself as a college student as someone just getting started out has it gone the way you wanted it to go are you pleased how do you feel about how your your career has gone so far i mean look i i i it's easy to say well i wanted to make you know i thought i'd be making big theatrical films you know i thought i you know it's easy to say well you know i i was really hoping that you know to be here by now or they're better but you know you really have to look back and say you know what i am lucky to be where i am i am absolutely lucky and and i would be a fool not to acknowledge that and appreciate everything that i've got everything that every opportunity i've had every person i've met so it's just it's just kind of interesting so you don't feel disappointed that you haven't made a movie for warner brothers yet no no i don't i think i think i think it's important not to be i really do i think and it's so easy to let that get to it's so easy in this business to compare where you are to everybody else social media all of you just get to see everybody's successes and failures more than ever before um so it's so humid to do that it's it's human to do that i mean i remember so i don't i'm working at world record and i'm i'm i'm you know seven dollars an hour and i'm in the turn and one morning you know because because you know back then it was actually printed you know trade subscriptions like variety hollywood reporter they were actually printed on paper we really needed to remind people we're not that old they were talking about all these things that didn't exist when we came up but we are not that old we are early 40s so you know i would get to work early and i would open up the thing and i remember uh one day i opened up the trades and on the front uh actually i didn't have to open it up it was on the cover uh there was a student that i had been gone to nyu with who was in one of my classes who had his student film had been seen by somebody at new line and new line gave him a deal make a feature film and i remember i was way too jealous way too envious and i really let it get to me it disturbed me in all the ways that it shouldn't and and um that's absolutely the wrong reaction 100 the wrong reaction and and these are things that should be celebrated and happy and and you know to somebody who's feeling that knock it off yeah how do you how do you knock it off it's so hard to do be happy because you know what they did the same thing you did they were you know if he can what you should be saying is if that guy can make it i can you know and and and you know fight on and good for him and and you know i follow you know i've watched his films i've seen all of them you know good for him really good there really is room it's it's a common theme of the show and just of everything that i say to people there is room for everyone to succeed here like you said with all the streaming there is more avenues for people to get their work out there than ever before you can use it to just let anyone else's success even if it looks like someone just woke up one day wrote a script sold it to new line and they didn't they didn't do it that way no and somebody brought up a company i remember reading an article about about about this very topic and they're not getting discouraged and the particular point like if you really look into a story if you really look into an overnight success story you you will see you can you can kind of kind of start to feel the connection well so-and-so was an assistant at an age so that means that they met somebody that they knew something who happened to you know like i did and they were probably spending late nights doing all of that you know absolutely and there is no such thing as an overnight success and you can't expect it and there's actually it's funny there was and and this is you know people fall victim to this i mean not so much anymore because i think you know we kind of you know i think that today's generation has moved beyond spielberg but our generation was very much like you know pre-tarantino whatever you know if very much spielberg that was your you know he was the guy like that's what you wanted to be him and you know the story was that he you know he what broke into universal and took over you know got off the tram one day and hid in the bathroom until the tram left then he found an office that was empty and claimed it and you know went to work every day and just took over this empty office and i mean just these crazy stories like and he you know made jaws when he was like you know 15. i'm exaggerating he was like 22. but the point is like you know if i'm if you know i'm 25 and i haven't made jaws yet i am a loser right and that is absolutely the only one out of that kind of mindset there is always going to be a you know there's always going to be a spielberg or or um you know uh uh damien chazelle or somebody who's just a a wonder candy comes out and and does it but you know what that's not that's not the end of it and and there's so many opportunities out there and look there are people that would kill to be where i am and i you know and and i would be uh you know it shame on me for not recognizing that you know and so that's that's gonna have to tell people not just you know funny story on that topic that's right i joined the producer's guild a couple years ago and they have a a mentor program and i and and i thought to myself oh well this is an opportunity to to you know learn from an experience but you know whatever and this is kind of it's a kind of the wake-up call that i got so i went up to the person that ran the in the the mentor program and i introduced myself and you know i was like by the way whatever like you know i'm really interested in being a part of it and said okay you know i think i think i think i can get a lot out of this that absolutely i will find you uh some mentees to learn from you and i was like no no no i want a mentor but the point is like don't don't take anything for granted i am incredibly fortunate and and although i don't look at it you know you you you do teasingly you know big big producer director whatever you called me um but it's like two to so many people out there i i am but i'm making a living i mean i i may not be living in in in malibu with the you know the the beachfront property and the porsche but you know i i'm making a living and i'm making a living doing what i want to do and and i'll be doing it i'm very happy everybody you're happy i mean tomorrow i'm gonna i i've got a new story idea that i came up with today that jeff and i were talking about that you know we we we you know we might just kind of fast track and shoot very quickly very soon and tomorrow i get to go to the office and plan that story out how cool is it that's pretty cool that's pretty cool you know and that's what i'm gonna you know uh so i'm excited you know i'm excited about that opportunity i'm excited i finished the script today and turned it in and yeah sure i'll probably get some notes but you know i got to write a a you know a pretty cool thriller and and and yeah i mean any job will get tedious just in the repetition of it but dammit that's cool and you're happy with where things are the where where your career is right now is you're right where you want to be and and you're you're you're pleased with all of all that everything is a step so you know dog who saved halloween little 10-day movie made for probably the craft service budget on my last film you know and then you know okay that was a 10-day movie and then the next in a couple films for like 11 days uh then maybe there was a 12 day and now you're getting into you know you're getting into to more network stuff like do a movie for ion and do movies for lifetime do a movie for hallmark you do you know and and so every film you know you just you're confidently getting you're just you're just setting the sites you know higher and higher and higher uh and then you know netflix like okay this is you know what the next level and just you know i've never been satisfied with just staying in one place i feel like i'm constantly growing and doing better movies and different movies and reaching different levels and i think as long as that continues i'll be fine that's great all right well peter sullivan thank you so much for joining us what are your what are the most current movies out and where can we find them uh fatal affair will be on netflix probably this summer uh very excited about it it's got an amazing cast uh neil long just a wonderful actress we got all my apps we've got steven bishop who had the big fan from imposters it's just it's it's a good one i'm very excited to be sharing that with people and that'll be out this summer all right well stay tuned this summer coming to netflix fatal affair and uh peter sullivan thank you again for joining us dear friend of mine and we can't wait to to see the next one and you know just keep putting one foot in front of the other and making movies thank you all right thanks guys we'll see you later back but there you have it my interview with peter sullivan we had a good conversation no it wasn't usually you know i like to go a little bit more onto the mental health side of things but he's a had a very long career in hollywood so far he's been working for over 20 years and you know just his entire uh you know career path i think is of some interest to you guys uh trying to make it you know as independent film directors trying to make it and and the struggle you know the daily struggle of just trying to get through and you know be creative and make something and make a career in this business so that was peter sullivan we have some more exciting interviews coming up for you over the next couple of weeks i've got them all on the can stay tuned i don't know which one's going to come up next i'm still kind of shuffling the schedule coming up but i will have another episode coming out to you guys next week stay tuned for more information about that and we'll be back next week with more of season two of head above water thanks for joining us take care you